Not Enough Time

As each day goes by and I get older (hence a birthday this week - "41"), I find myself wondering where all the time has gone.  Remember when you were growing up or when you had a child and all the adults were saying, "Enjoy this, time will pass by so quickly".  That's how I feel daily, never enough time to clean, never enough time to just play with the kids, never enough time to read, do a hobby, spend time alone with your spouse.  Having a 10 year old son & a 3 year old son, can be trying at times - their activities are not the same, they have different needs.  I feel myself being pulled in all different directions - thinking "WHEN IS IT ME TIME!"  (Does that ever happen to you?)

"Sons are indeed a heritage from the LORD, children, a reward (Psalm 127:3).  I believe that with all my heart, It only takes a second to look @ my 2 boys and see how blessed I am.  I think back to 11 years ago when all I died was cry and pray for just one child, just one Lord.  I am so thankful that he blessed me with them.  But I still have a hard time, just stopping when they need me to listen and play with them. In the back of my mind, I'm going I have this to do, here to go, etc.  I pray that God will help me to Stop and Listen Daily to the needs of my children and husband because "Time really if passing to quickly".

My Firstborn

This past Wednesday was my oldest son's "10th" birthday.  He is so kind hearted and full of life.  I can still remember the moment that the nurse called me @ work and told me that I was indeed pregnant.  I told her, "you're lying".  After everything we had been throught I couldn't believe that our dream of becoming parents was about the come true.  I planned on waiting until I got home to tell David, but I was so excited I called him on his cell phone.  He was on his way back to work from lunch.  I think he was in shock also.  From that moment on our life changed forever. I no longer put myself first - I constantly made sure everything I did was for our unborn child.  I in no way was prepared for the love and joy that a child could bring us.  Haydn Matthew Varon was born on 2/2/11 after 21 hours of labor, an unplanned c-section, out come a baby boy weighing in @ 9.3 lbs.  (I know - there's no way I would of been able to have that baby naturally)!

I had planned on going back to work @ 8 weeks, but Haydn had been throwing up his formula alot and after several trips to the doctor, we were sent for an upper GI.  They immediately sent us to the hospital for emergency surgery.  His stomach flap would not open all the way and that's why he would throw up his formula, it's called pyloric stenosis.  To think of your 8 week old child having surgery, I felt helpless, like what if he doesn't make it.  Needless to say he did great, spent about 4 days in the hospital and never stopped eating since!

It has been a long road to get our two boys and we are in awe of them everyday and the journey we have traveled.  God has truly blessed.

We Love You, Haydn Matthew Varon !